Sabotage

I would mentally sabotage my chances at understanding something of the mind. For example while playing soccer, I would chase the ball aimelessly without looking at the big picutre. Same for basketball. Without thinking at preserving energy or being in the right position. When it comes to sport, I don't like to use my brain.

I am going to reframe my mind. Then find out why I purposely do that. I have a fear of beating another person at something.