Letting go

In all the roads that I’ve travelled and in the people that I find amazing, I’ve found a common core that encompasses all of them which will promote the best outcome in all. That is to let go. After letting go, I’ve been able to explore and experiment freely, encountering events that I can never have encounter before.

It’s a long a painful process that involved long nights of lying in my bed and reflecting on the encounters of the day. To see myself from the other person’s shoe and notice the chemistry as time passes by. I replayed humiliating events in my head over and over again until they are funny and stood face to face with the reason I was embarrassed.

With this, I don’t have to prove myself anymore. When a person asks me a question, I can honestly say I don’t know and couldn’t care less if they think I am stupid. I can remain quiet during an uncomfortable silence and not have the urge to blurt out something. I accept the fact that I can’t be best pals with everyone. I can watch a stock I bought plummet to the ground without breaking a sweat because when I made the choice, the money is considered already lost.

I now understands the final path in the eight fold path, however, I doubt the understanding since I cannot comprehend the first truth in the four noble truths. Why are we here to suffer?