Sometimes… I want to bitch slap myself soo hard that I think I'll die just from the thought of it.
What kind of an idiot am I?
Anyway, cultural shock is settling in and the fact that I have next to no friend is hitting me as well.
Language barrier is showing up and I don't feel like I've grown at all. The chracter that I am while communicating verbally in English, is still the pussycat cocky showoff that I was last year. It's as I suspected, my inner growth in mandarin has nothing to do with english.